Mirror Mirror | A Perfect Daugther

Question: Don’t we all want to be a good son or daugther?

What happens when that means I need to be disobedient to my parents’ rules to survive? What if my speaking up goes against everything they taught me? What if my needs now must surface in order to move forward?

I truly would like to be a good daugther. For me, that won’t work with the rule book I’ve been given. Breaking the family code has meant an utter abandonment by them all.

I walk alone now without a brother, a sister, a father or a mother.

I’d choose it all again because I not only survive now, I actually live. I know what it feels like to have a choice in a matter, to pick and choose what is good for me. That’s freedom.

And I don’t truly walk alone. At first it felt as if I would. Today, I realize the amazing gifts I have left around. Beautiful children and grandchildren, a husband I adore, and friends that mean the world to me.

Nope — I won’t ever be a perfect daughter but the loss of those relationships isn’t as grand as the moments I live today outside of the choas, the guilt, and the shame.

Ask yourself this question: What does that title really give you? Is it worth it?

#UCU

Originally published at https://prisonerbynocrimeofmyown.com on December 11, 2023.