Mental Fitness

I was depressed for a very long time. All through my teen years and most of my 20s. Many many very serious suicide attempts. Longtime addiction. Etc etc etc. I still feel sad sometimes (when necessary) but mostly I am way above baseline. Like technicolor silly happy stupid happy.

How can that be?

Did I go through a major personality shift? Do I live in ignorant bliss? Am I on anti-depressants? Nope. Nope. No.

Aside from God and the grace and courage and strength He gives me daily … I work very hard to stay in a state of mental fitness. I do not let myself fall into victim mode, I face the things that give me anxiety, I take on hard tasks, a relish challenges…. Seek them out and find new levels of toughness I didn’t know existed in me. It’s invigorating! But you can’t know this about yourself unless you push. And I mean push yourself HARD.

What might also surprise you is that it doesn’t involve self care, thinking about my problems, or focusing too much on me at all. For me, setting high expectations for my day and serving God and the people I love keep me focused, centered and mentally well.

It’s all a habit of mind. It’s challenging yourself at every turn. It’s embracing really hard shit and strengthening your mind constantly…sharpening it like a tool. It’s understanding that the brain is adapted to seek suffering — once you understand this you can hijack the wiring and stop worrying about things that you can’t control.

Embrace legitimate suffering when it comes but train yourself rise above everyday stressors and make friends with uncomfortable feelings and you will eventually feel so mentally strong that most things won’t shake you.

B 🤍

Originally published at http://thepedophilehuntress.com on April 26, 2024.